2017 was slow and fairly painful. A lot of shit happened and I struggled a lot. However, I found myself making a lot of mistakes and not resolving or learning from them, which leads me on to introduce these things I want to learn in 2018.
1. How to maintain a strong friendship.
In 2017 I lost a lot of friends. My mental illness caused me to push a lot of people away and I must admit that I treated a lot of people like shit. I need to learn how to be kinder to myself and others, as well as how to communicate properly, especially when discussing my own mental health.
With the many new friends I have already made this year, who have already helped me become a better person, I am going to communicate more, and try not to be afraid of reaching out for help.
2. How to maintain a strong relationship, and knowing when to leave.
In 2017 I started and got pushed out of a very toxic relationship. It was very one-sided and lacked a lot of communication, which resulted in a messy ending and my mental health spiralling down hill.
In 2018 I need to watch out for the signs of a toxic relationship. I also need to learn that wanting attention is okay. I have started seeing someone which seems very promising, and I’m really looking forward to seeing this relationship progress.
3. How to cheer the fuck up.
I’ll admit that I get myself down a lot. I get myself in a right state and never know how to lift my mood. This year I will practice self-care and learn what cheers me up. I will surround myself with people who care about me and find out how to put myself in a positive environment.
4. Why people do the things they do, especially the dickheads
I had a hard time understanding people in 2017. I took many things personally without realising there could be more to it. I need to think more before I jump to conclusions, and consider others a little more.
5. How to have a good time.
I’m 18 in June, I can’t wait to have a little more freedom and have more responsibilities (as weird as it sounds). I will feel more like myself and I will be able to surround myself with the people I want to surround myself with.
C’mon 2018, be nice to me.