Being single, very lonely and bipolar today was difficult. My social circle is minimal, my family aren’t close and I’ve been single for over a year. I find logging on to any social media making me feel ill, and the widespread message of “if you’re single on valentines day, spend it with your friends and family!” which isn’t really an option today.
My current depressive episode is killing me, I cant see a way out even though I know it won’t last forever. My isolation hurts, and even my therapist is struggling to give me advice. although I know I won’t be sad forever, I’m starting to feel like this loneliness will last longer than I expected.
I just want to be appreciated and loved. I want people to reach out to me for care, help and fun rather than having to force myself into other peoples lives. I want people to enjoy my company, and I want to enjoy other people’s company.
Happy Valentine’s Day all, I hope you’ve all been shown the love and appreciation you deserve today.